Lies. 

Every one you’ve ever told. 

You write it out, fold it up, and put it in the drawer. 

Pretty soon it’s peeking out. 

By the time you die, it’ll be overflowing. 

Papers, papers, papers. 

When you’re younger, you tell small ones mixed in with some big ones. 

But Momma doesn’t want you to so you don’t too much. 

You need her. 

As you grow up, you don’t need her. 

There’s no reason to stop. 

Keep adding papers. 

It’s okay. 

              Where’s the shoulder to cry on?

It’s normal. 

              What if I don’t want to?

It’s accepted.

              What if I can’t accept myself?

You move out and have gained your independence, but are never free. 

Carry the drawer behind you. 

Clank, clank, clank. 

It comes down the stairs with you. 

It comes up the stairs with you. 

It’s chained to your ankle. 

Never goes away, keeps getting heavier, every day is harder. 

Papers, papers, papers. 

Flood your room.

              Your life. 

Flood your house. 

              Your city. 

Flood your community. 

              Your world. 

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Written by

Zoe Zarubin

Zoe Zarubin, senior, has always had a deep love for storytelling. When she was younger, she would tell them verbally to anyone who would listen, but now, creative writing is her new outlet for her thoughts and ideas and it brings her great joy. Other things that bring her joy include her family, her friends, her church group, reading, climbing, and visiting Donner Lake every summer. She has a passion for both telling stories and hearing/reading them and is looking forward to her third year in the academy as the Assignment Editor!