”You need to move on” is a phrase said so often
one would think it just happens with the passing of time.
And yet all it’s done is make me angry at people I’ve never met through a screen,
rolling my eyes at a picture on Pinterest and laughing at cliche phrases with their glittery words.
But there is something else that lingers that makes me so bitter because I know if its written, someone must have known it,
and yet I’ve tried every method. I’ve “felt my emotions,” I’ve fought to “learn from my mistakes,” and “see the light at the end of the tunnel.”,
to “be optimistic” and “smile more.”
To say affirmations that always get stuck in my throat
Words were easier to say when i didn’t know them at all,
so instead, I float,
stuck right on the line of “moving on,” not drifting forward or back, just stagnant, flat on my back.
And I like thinking that at least I’m not falling; At least I’m above ground,
but what’s the point of being optimistic about something that gives nothing back?
So when she looked me in the eye and told me she had “moved on,” I was happy
because at least no one else was floating.
Everyone had moved on.
